I'm Going to San Francisco to be a Porn Star (Ep. 62 - Conner Habib)

This Week's Guest: Conner Habib

I'm Going to San Francisco to be a Porn Star (Ep. 62 - Conner Habib)
Matt Baume & Conner Habib

You may think you already know a lot about Conner, given that you've probably seen him naked in such films as Dad Goes to College, Hot House Backroom Volume 18, and Brief Encounters.

But Conner actually holds his cards pretty close to his furry chest. Though you might've seen him naked in porn, you probably know less about his background growing up in Mennonite country, dabbling in the occult, getting lost in the Pennsylvania punk scene, and his secret super power.

"There was something appealing to me about being a kid with superpowers," he says, reflecting on his childhood obsession with Superfriends. He'd fantasize about having powers of his own (something he still does to this day). Back then, he longed to be able to control animals -- maybe because he had severe allergies that prevented him from even being able to touch the family dog. "It kind of just shows that I was really lonely," he says.

Later on, he stumbled across a book on the occult in the school library, and his new obsession became spells and hexes. Alone in his room -- or sometimes with a friend -- he'd open the stolen book and chant incantations and make voodoo dolls. And even when the spells seemed to have no demonstrable effect, such as when he tried to turn himself into a cat, he was confident that at least something was happening. "I look back now and think maybe I shouldn't have messed with that stuff," he says, but "I just wanted there to be more magic."

It wasn't easy being gay in his small town. There was one neighbor who he'd have sex with, then berate himself endlessly. At school, he'd beg male friends for sex, and they'd all laugh it off as a joke.

As he got a little older, he fell in with the Pennsylvania punk scene, which was a good fit for his strangeness and rule-breaking. Even though he scene was pretty homophobic, the punks that he met seemed to respect that queer people were doing something that freaked out the mainstream, and they respected him. 

Eventually, he decided, he was going to move to San Francisco to become a porn star. He was teaching at the time, and his students thought it was awesome. Once again, he was going to dive into a world outside the mainstream -- whether fantasizing about superheroes, chanting spells, listening to punk rock or slipping away for gay sex. Throughout his life, he realized, he's been an outside.

But after a while, if you're an outsider in enough ways, "you're no longer an outsider. You're a bridge."

By the way, Conner's hosting a live online course on Sunday, June 5, called Pornworld that's all about what porn teaches us about sex. I'll have more details on that at the end of the show, or head over to ConnerHabib.com to find out more about the course. 

This Week's Recommendation: The First Nudie Musical

Even though these days Connor only takes off his clothes on an infrequent basis, there's still plenty of porn to be enjoyed in the world. And for this week's recommendation, I suggest you find a movie called "The First Nudie Musical." 

The film was made for a couple of bucks in the late 70s and stars, of all people, Cindy Williams from Laverne and Shirley. The story is that a low-budget porn studio is about to go out of business, but the owner -- who inherited it as a legitimate movie company from his father -- wants to keep the family business alive. His secretary, played by Cindy, suggests that they make a pornographic musical extravaganza called "Come Come Now." And there you have it: an excuse for a series of bosom-bearing scenes set to song.

As musicals go, it's, well, fine, with numbers like "Lesbian Butch Dyke" and "Dancing Dildos." As porn goes, it's probably not going to win any Grabby awards. But there's something about the blend of the two styles that's hard to look away from.

And in a way, it's a bit like sex: occasionally hot, mostly messy, sometimes funny, a little serious but mostly really really really weird. There's nothing profound about the movie, no deep truths revealed by the sight of Cindy Williams wearing a hat shaped like a middle finger, no philosophies explained by the actress who brags at an audition that she's done some minor bestiality. Like a good roll in the hay, a sexy film doesn't have to be deep or penetrating -- sometimes the best ones are just a bit of silly, harmless fun.

Music:

Parisian Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
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What Sets You Apart is What Makes You Stand Out (Ep. 61 - Buffy)

What Sets You Apart is What Makes You Stand Out (Ep. 61 - Buffy)
Matt Baume & Terry Blas

This Week's Guest: Terry Blas

You might be familiar with the work of this week's guest. Terry drew a comic that everyone was passing around a few months ago called "You Say Latino," that's all about the differences between Latino and Hispanic. He has a new comic up this week on Fusion.com called "Ghetto Swirl," about coming to terms with being gay and Mormon.

If you haven't seen his work, check them out -- they're both quick reads, and they're helpful guides for how to describe people around you, or yourself. And Terry knows a thing or two about labels. Nerdy, Hispanic, Mormon, gay, comic illustrator -- he's worn a lot of hats. Or at least, he's tried on a lot of hats. Some fit, and others didn't. They really really didn't.

This Week's Recommendation: Buffy

Thanks again to Terry for joining me. And also for reminding me what an amazing show Buffy is -- it's been a while since I watched, but gathering clips for this week's episode sent me down a YouTube spiral of some amazing episodes. And you should do the same -- my recommendation this week is to clear your calendar for a month or two so you can watch all seven seasons.

Now season 1 is a little rough. The touches of brilliance are all there, but you'll have to be a little patient while they all come together. Season one is very much about standard teen drama, but the show hits its stride soon enough and before long you're watching something so sophisticated that there is now an entire academic discipline known as "Buffy Studies."

One of the most amazing things about the show -- and there are a lot, but no spoilers -- is how much it changes over time. You can binge watch all 144 episodes over the course of two months, if you watch two a day. But when it aired, the story played out over seven years. And we didn't just watch Buffy journey through adolescence, we followed the show into its own adulthood, growing increasingly dark as it grapples not with popularity or parental pressure, but with life, death, the purpose of existence.

Also, in case you haven't heard, there's a musical episode, so that's pretty great.

Clips of Stuff We Talked About

Music:

Parisian Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
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Secrets and Family (Ep. 60 - Soap operas)

Secrets and Family (Ep. 60 - Soap operas)
Matt Baume and Conor Patrick

This Week's Guest: Conor Patrick

Do you know all of your family secrets? And is it possible that you might be one of them? My guest this week is Conor Patrick, whose work you can catch right now on on Cinemax -- he's a script coordinator on the show Banshee, which is about sinister mysteries hiding in a small town.

As a kid, Conor obsessed over the convoluted family plots of soap operas. His parents were prominent local celebrities in the town where he grew up, which meant his family was always in the spotlight. And that meant HE was always in the spotlight. And the secrets he harbored might someday be exposed as well. 

This Week's Recommendation: Billy Elliot

Thanks again to Conor for joining me. You can catch his work as script supervisor on Banshee -- the show's reaching its series finale on May 20th, so it's a perfect time to binge watch.

Banshee's all about hidden secrets and coded behavior in an isolated town, and if you like that sort of story I cannot recommend highly enough the film Billy Elliot. Set during the UK miners strike in the 1980s, it's the story of a rough rural family and a boy who, when sent to learn to fight, instead discovers his gift for dance. 

There are a lot of feelings happening in this movie. But at its core is a boy who wants to be appreciated, and a parent who isn't sure he knows his own son. Throughout the movie, they orbit each other, drawing closer and further, experiencing moments of honesty between periods of distance.

As obvious as it is that Billy has a gift, it seems just as clear that his father, a miner, will never understand it. But the most beautiful moment of the film -- and no spoilers -- is its last five seconds. Don't skip to the end, because it won't mean anything unless you've watched it through. But there comes a point at which both characters, Billy and his father, take a leap. For Billy, it's a leap to becoming the man he'd always wanted to be. For his father, it's meeting his son in midair -- despite being at a physical distance -- to finally see someone he thought he knew for the first time.

Clips of Stuff We Talked About

 

Music:

Parisian Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
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She Made me Dress up as the Pink Carebear (Ep. 59 - Boy Bands)

She Made me Dress up as the Pink Carebear (Ep. 59 - Boy Bands)
Matt Baume & Kevin Yee

This Week's Guest: Kevin Yee

What would you do if you sacrificed everything for your dreams -- and then your dreams change? My guest this week is Kevin Yee, who's been a professional performer almost as long as he's been alive. As a teenager, he got the chance of a lifetime when he was cast in a late-90s boy band. Three years later, things hadn't quite turned out as he'd hoped, and he thought his dreams of performing were over before he had even reached adulthood. 

These days things are looking a bit better -- you can catch him performing at the Cafe Fear Comedy Festival in Wilmington NC from May 18-21, and the Highlarious Comedy Festival in Seattle this August. You can get details on the performances at KevinYee.com... and you can get the story of his journey from boy band to stand up right now in our conversation.

This Week's Recommendation: Double Life

I met Kevin a couple years ago, long after he put the boy band and clothing store behind him and found his calling in comedy. He is even more fun and funny in person than he is on stage, and I'm so glad I know THAT Kevin, the real Kevin, and that as awful as his time in the band surely was, that it only strengthened his resolve to live a life that's genuine.

And as glitzy and glamorous and gay as showbusiness is, it's long had a way of forcing people to repress their true selves, forcing queer entertainers to adopt a straight facade. That a disservice not just to artists, but also to audiences -- whether and actor or a singer or painter or a poet, art need honesty in order to work.

For my recommendation this week, I'd like to check out the book Double Life, by Alan Shayne and Norman Sunshine. The two men met in June of 1958, when Norman spotted Alan onstage on the Broadway show Jamaica. And over their six decades together, they've worked onstage, in television, in advertising, in visual arts -- and the memoir they wrote a few years back is a meticulous chronicle of how their lives were shaped by the various closets they endured.

Double Life is a fascinating glimpse at the ways that the entertainment industry forced gay men to remain closeted, to deny their own existence. It's also a tender love letter between two men who shared each other's lives, often through times when only they and their closest friends could know what those lives truly were. And it's a reminder of how lucky we are to live in a time when artists and their art can be honest, and are no longer forced to wear a straight face.

Clips of Stuff We Talked About This Week

Music:
Parisian Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
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